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현각스님,
https://twitter.com/sagecutter/status/1745187444222214226?s=20
[Pope Francis] seems like buried under avalanche of criticism...
[Celibacy] requirement is such an unbefitting regiment in the 21st century...
I don't fault the frustrated monks...
[Pope Francis] is caught between unforgiving public and desire to accommodate the need for the monks...
I want to ask the public to forgive [Pope Francis] for not punishing the monks and priests who deviated from the (outdated) church requirement...
But before I can do that, I also have personal grudge (to someone) I harbor that I need to let go...
But before I go into that, I would like to borrow [Jesus]' uttering:
RodolphoBernardelli
'Christ and the Adulterous Woman'
1881
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jesus_and_the_woman_taken_in_adultery
"Let anyone among you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her."
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[A Monologue]
Why do we want to buy latest fashion -- what is it that makes us feel 'gotta have'?
Let's fantasize that we are monks -- on our way back to our cell after having been to market, we pass by a theater...
Let's say the theater is playing [Story of O] & you've heard rumors from other monks about the movie...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LPCqBjBkvg0
Suddenly you want to watch the movie...
How do you feel after you watch fuck-movie?
You want to fuck somebody, right? Right...
Monks are human beings too -- just like everybody else...
And sex is addictive...
You live fine some 20 years without having sex, then you meet someone and have sex, then you want to have sex every night...
Then you go through the guilt trip & mope around beating yourself...
That's nothing...
What really causes commotion is what other people make out of what you do -- sometimes even if you don't do what others 'fantasize' you might do...
Then they write poetry about 'go tangle up and rot' and shit...
Not just one poet, not just two poets, not even three...
The whole world goes into 'judging' what you did (even if you didn't) deserve hell and more...
Google says it is in [Demian] [Hermann Hesse] talks about one half of our face turning into angel and the other half turningm into demon if we look into mirror too long...
https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/24861.Demian_Die_Geschichte_von_Emil_Sinclairs_Jugend
Am I still tripping on [Bogomil]?
Yes and no...
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In case someone is reading this writing without having read the following:
[Bogomil Study]
http://free-4474635.webadorsite.com/1636705_bogomil-study
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Someone already said this: Good/God and Evil/Satan are not external beings but they reside inside us...
Bingo...
I would like to add that it is our [Psychology] that 'sculpts' our [Emotion] into Good/God-like (almost never) or Evil/Satan (99.99% of the time)...
There are so many factors that take us into the Evil/Satanic mode: COMPETITION, JEALOUSY, ENVY, etc., etc., etc....
We literally 'NURTURE' our being into becoming a PERFECT EVIL/SATAN...
The longer we live, the closer we become ONE with our SATANIC SELF...
And before we know, we are dead -- and ready for another round to repeat the whole garbage all over, again and again and again (SAMSARA, if you are Buddhist)...
That -- we call LIFE...
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Back to [Hyon Gak Sunim]
언젠가 만나보신 적 있는 저와 하와이대학 같이 다녔던 친구 [구자명]을 기억하시는지요?
저는 아버지와 어머니를 버린 사람입니다...
절이나 수녀원에 들어 간 사람들 처럼...
그러니까 부모님이 사시던 땅이라던가 그분들의 재산같은 것들이 그분들이 돌아가신 후 어뗳게 되든 전 아무 상관이 없는 사람이 되어버린겁니다...
제가 그렇게 되기를 선택했기 때문에...
거기다 저와 저의 부모님은 국적이 다릅니다; 남한은 제게 이중국적을 거절했읍니다...
그런데 소문에 돌기를 제 옛친구가 (그녀의 아버지와 저의 아버지는 한때 술친구 이시기도 했었답니다) 저의 아버지의 묘지를 팔아먹었다는 소문을 듣고는 무척 원망을 했었읍니다...
그런데 한참 늙고보니, 그 친구가 하지않았더라면 다른 누군가가 했었을 수도 있는 일이었읍니다...
(Fengshui value added property -- asking for robbery...)
한때 '친구'였었다 해서 서로가 서로에게 어떤 의무 또는 도리 같은 것이 있었어야했다고 생각한다면, 그건 그렇게 생각하는 자가 잘못 생각하는 것입니다...
만약 제 친구가 아닌 모르는 사람이 한 일이었다면 아마도 한숨을 몇번 내쉬는걸로 그쳤을 일입니다...
'친구'였었기에 그럴 수 없다라는 '기대'같은 것을 했었던 '선입관'이 제게 '한'을 맺게 한것 같읍니다...
그러니까, 대중들이 [카톨릭 교황]이 어떻게 이럴 수가 라는 '실망'같은 것을 느낀다면, 그건 그런 '선입관'을 지닌 자들의 오산일 뿐입니다...
그러니까 제가 저의 친구에게 품었던 '한'이나, 대중들이 [프란시스 교황]에게 쏴대는 '독침'들은 아무 과녁도 맞추지 못한채 허공에 색깔없는 무지개를 커다랗게 그리고는 기다리는 지옥으로 떨어지고 말 것 입니다...
제 친구의 페북에 이 글을 넣고 싶어도 넣을 수 없기에 행여 나라서 (막아서) 그렇다면, 현각스님께서 좀 넣어주셨으면 해서요... (강요 아니니까 부담같지 마세요...)
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